It was weird. And it took a LONG time. But I did in fact come home after my exchange year in Sweden, believe it or not. However when I said I did not want to stop being an exchange student, I did not really mean that I wanted to sit in airports from Tuesday until Friday of that week. Rather sitting at home than stuck in between! But after many cancelled flights and a pair of unplanned hotel stays, I was actually able to walk into my room on Hoover Street on June 27. I can faithfully report back that nothing has changed, and that Oregon is exactly the same besides the fro-yo place and a new restaurant called HQ…what does that even mean?
I do not really know if I liked being back. It was so nice to see everyone, and I really enjoyed not being the “new person” or tag-along guest for the first time in a year. If there was one thing I missed, it was the sense of knowing everything about life in my town and being familiar with everyone and just how things operate. A sense of the familiar washed over me immediately as we drove into town for the first time, and it almost felt like I had never left. It felt quite natural to speak with my friends and family members and I truly enjoyed the chance to speak with so many people even though many were missed!
However despite all of this, I missed and still miss Sweden very much. Life in Lund became my familiarity over the course of this year. Even after living there for less than a year was I able to go out and always meet or see someone I knew. Life in Sweden was a life I liked so much, and I do not think I can just drop it and move home to the United States. I think I had an abnormally large attachment for my host country compared to other exchange students. Luckily, I discovered this information many months before my trip home and applied for studies at Lund University quite some time ago. Several weeks ago I found out that I have been accepted into the Development Studies program at the University and will start studying there in the autumn. So in other words, I am moving to Sweden. I even have a room with a real address! In Sweden! I cannot even fathom the realness of that I am actually moving to another county for real, not just as a temporary exchange student. The whole situation is quite empowering really. The only sad part was telling Lawrence University that I would not be going there anymore. But I felt so confident about wanting to move to Sweden that I think it will be worth the sacrifice. After being accepted and finding housing, all that is left now is ironing out all of the small details and getting my visa arranged. I certainly could have never seen this happening several years ago. But at the same time I think that my situation is truly a testament to the formative power of being an exchange student.
In other news, I have now been teaching Swedish and being a counselor at Sjölunden. This is the language camp that I attended for six years as a participant and where I first got the insane idea to be an exchange student. I live with nine 7-10 year old girls, work to exhaustion all the time, and am have the most wonderfully fun time I have ever had. I enjoy the being with the kids, and they seem to like me alright as well. And I can even manage to teach a bit of Swedish while acting completely ridiculous about 99% of the time. This is definitely the best job ever. Also the highest coffee-consuming job ever. But I honestly think that it was perfect timing to come work here just a week after coming home from Sweden. It is almost a sort of therapy for my “Sweden withdrawals”. Call it crazy, but I think that coming here to our little Sweden in the Minnesota northwoods is the only way I could actually mentally handle leaving actual Swedish life.
Below is a photo of the bulletin board of memories from my exchange year. Each time I got something from a memorable experience during the year, I would pin it on to the board. Included is everything from the welcome sign when I was picked up by my host family to my whistle from Swedish graduation day. A whole year, compacted onto a small bulletin board of the some of the most memorable experiences I will have in my life.
But anyway I am home in the USA, teaching Swedish to kids for a while longer, and then headed back to Sweden in August! More updates to come!
Puss och kram,
Anna